January 29 • Early and Often

Day 204 I'm told in recovery — or at least this is what I hear — that I can keep moving forward with sobriety, or I can be re-swallowed in the hell of addiction. I can wallow in the well-remembered horrors of my past, or I can believe in a future of better results with better early decisions, one step at a time. There doesn't seem to be a lot of room to be stepping in both worlds; destruction awaits the lies and the liars. At least the first step in those directions is still under my control. I still have a choice to step that way or a different way when faced with old pulls. I choose different. I must choose early and often. That bastard Addiction does not own my first choice. –JR