July 25 • Exposure

Day 381 Chipping away. That’s a good description of the little shards of myself I feel falling apart. That includes the loosening of a lot of cowardice about confronting things that I’ve pushed down for years. It has been reveling and shocking that I can start a conversation with, “Can I tell you what I heard you say and why I reacted that way?” without blowing things up. It still takes several minutes to realize and backtrack and sometimes swallow a little pride getting to an explanation and an apology, but it’s happening. And it’s been well received. It seems so silly that this has been a bugaboo in my life for so long. I want more of this. –JR