October 17 • Worse & Better

Day 465 This journey seems simultaneously ridiculous in the stringent tasks of recovery and the freedoms that come from the fellowships and the newly acquired honesties in life. I am often overwhelmed with the daily requirements of rewiring my brain and fighting my addict. But when I take a day off from working it, I'm often much more at the end of me and frightened by the tragedy I see coming at me again if I allow the little things back in. I am fortunate to be where I am in recovery, and I am grateful for the opportunity to fight this fight. It is making me a new person. I am becoming far less perfect than I always thought I was in the daylight and a far better man than the one I thought I wanted to be. –JR Help me to see, I'm better than I thought I was Set me free oh There's no safety this time, I fall apart and it figures, It's just the way I've always been, –Sleeping with Sirens, ”Captain Tyin Knots vs. Mr. Walkway (No Way)"